The nightmares don't stop... Every single one about this house!!! This time a tornado hit it and my front yard blew into everyone else yard. I noticed because I looked out my front window and noticed the things folded next to my front door where everywhere. When i went back inside it grew spider webs inside... I ran out. First I cried falling on my knees. I tried to help With my poker face. I look in my garage and saw my uncles car! Just untouched! Perfect! Before I fell asleep I thought of kicking Santos in the balls then jacking his car keys. Before walking away tell him that's what you get for leaving a girl with a child without a car!! Thoughts of hate always give me bad dreams!! Even in the dream I asked myself how could I get out of this. Then I woke up and I'm still in this house. When you hate reality. This is what happens your dreams tell you everything! That your unwilling to realize on your own. That is a God thought! The happy moment of the dream was being in a stadium walking down to the middle sitting and reading the cardboard box and children playing! I was being baby sat along with the other children just like in a Sunday school. I looked at the empty seats. Not wishing for anyone. Just at peace! Regular me! Lily wasn't there but I knew she was safe! I didn't recognize the faces watching me. But Idc!!! He put me there! Idk if he listened! Peace and contentment is great gain!
I sleep much better cuddling lily instead of the cat!
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