Dust off butterfliy's wing
If you thunk about it from my point of view. If I didn't begin to breathe all that would have been left of me is those videos. The ironic thing about the shoes I wore with my harvest dress...... I also wore with a white dress when I baptized Lily on October 26, 2008.
There is a saying becareful what you wish for. Even my prom dress was a little black dress was a little black dress. If you look closely I wore the same type of shoe. I can't imagine anyone wanting to be in my shoes. I set standards pretty high.
In my eyes I deserve a porshe speedster, Just like the one James dean had. He also died at the age of 24. In "the hall" i saw A movie called East of Eden, never knowing the star was James Dean. Yes, it made a huge impression on me. A very damn good movie dispite where I first saw it.
After I Sit back and anlasy the situation of just a few hours ago, I've come to the conclusion of what made me freak out and beg to move from such a horrific place. It was the image of my own blood betraying me. A sight I never thought I would have to undure since I had already dreamed about it. I think to myself, "my family loves me, they don't want to hurt me." it's what any child would want to think. Yes, it's what I want to say, but actions speak so much louder than words. So, for all of those that also were a witness to my betrayal please be a little patience with me while I recover from another heart breaking truth, I've come so far and feel like I've been pushed ten steps back.
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