A Forwarding Address: To Santo Cruz Subject: One Family Reunion Coming Right Up

I can't stop thinking about my vacation, who will be next to me as I travel the world? Yes, miss lily but who else? When we took the trip to pebble beach it was my mother and uncle. Since then, I have out grown them. I think of Angel and how she was needing help in English class when she was in high school. I gave her some of my owl hand outs from my class, the year I also took my intro the teaching class. After helping her she came home with a better grade. I was unknowingly tutoring back then. I think of Jessica and how she had gotten such good grades in high school even was offered the opportunity to travel with an honors class for the summer but her mother couldn't afford it. So, she didn't go. I think of Jimmy who called me "devil woman" on thanks giving because I read the bible to him (such a jerk). I was like dude why don't you ride the bus to school instead of someone driving all the way across town to pick you up? I also think of Gabriel that doesn't give Lily candy. I was washing dishes one day and heard him singing to Lily, it was way to cute. I think of Joel who is old enough to drink and also turning 25 this year.

I would say "hey Santos wanna go?" because he does so much for me, like pay my bills and clean the yard. Technically I have two who take care of Lily and I. Its only because I took care of them first that I am able to do whatever the hell i want and they foot the bill. But, there is one thing missing and I have every right to be angry about, A lack of communication. See, when you asked to marry me you had no idea what family you were marrying into. 

There is the Mendoza's, Montero's, Waits, and Moreno.  Your not my first family, because you are the best I have saved you for last. 

         Stephanie Victoria Cruz 

Something Real

So, there was this guy that I use to go to school with, his name was Colten Moore. If I remember correctly he is my age. We walked down the same hall ways and sat in front of the same teachers. There was even a day I ran into him at the Visa... Mall! If he had a child, what would the baby been? How would he have choosen to raise his own? Where would they go trick or treating? A person with such potential and only a child himself when just one slip of the tounge took his breath away!!! Life is only the safe when you think ahead and plan for the best expecting the worste!!!!

It is hard to tell some one "Don't tell me to get a Life just because you are no longer apart of it." I made a choice to not get stuck in the passenger seat of your car and end up in the family cemetary where my child could only hear good stories of how I choose to support her. I have received the luxury of telling my version and for that reason alone, I am so very thankful. I'm no longer the crowd pleaser, or the side kick! I'm in love with the idea of growing old with someone worthy of my time!!! One who comforts me and loves me for who I am and what I will become _____________!

If there is ever someone out there up to the challenge.... I will let you into my life one day at a time!!!