Off with the hand cuffs

That feeling of wanting to give up is when I talk myself into keep going!!  The biggest mistake you can make is calling the Person who use to support your bad habits a girl. I am a woman!   In business it is always good to have a little competition. It's what keeps things interesting. I've been given this opportunity to not only remember the lies that were told to me which I repeated, because I was looking for truth in all the wrong places!  Well, I found my truth in my dreams and in lily's voice. In her little question "how was I made?"  Eph5:13 But all things that are reproved are made manifest by the light: for whatsoever doth make manifest is light. 14 Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light. The night I had the deepest darkest dream was after the " trip from Hell " at St. Johns River (2011) I heard noises of creatures: snakes and crickets and the wind! I didn't understand what was said or ment by the dream. Not enough time had passed! It was only the day I called him Dr. Voodoo!!! It was the beginning of a new life!!! It was also the day Staci Died. In many ways I believe we trade places.... I woke up and was acting like me but not really knowing the meaning of who I am. So, I searched and finally came up with a solution to my problem..... Live a life well lived... It is the best revenge!! (Shelby)  This is not a philosophy statement this is all factual..... A thesis! It is my way of Paying respect to not only the ones who took time to be taught but those who learn and create...  Compared to God I am nothing but to him I am everything.                                         S.V.M.