So the money I was planning on spending on my lily is gone. I think that's why there is such an anger inside me. I seriously spent all day painting the bathroom in hopes when the sun went down today to buy the rest of the paint and make new and repair what once was broken! Now I have to clean my mess and wait till next month to finish what I started! Today was my time limit, has turned into next month!
I remember when I lived on court St and finally kicked Gilbert out. It was before I watched him fuck another girl in front of me. I was living on welfare and didn't have a reason to go out or party! I stayed home and did nothing. Just like I do now!!! Even though this time I have been a lot more productive and honest. It was one day while I was walking down Main St. I had just gone to the bank and realized I had extra spending money!! I walked into sugar plums and bought myself something!! I don't remember what it was, but I remember the sun shining so bright and that feeling of accomplishment!! I was able to save my money because I didn't have anyone to spend it on! That's the way this month was suppose to go. I knew when my bills were due, I knew what I had to get done around my house and I knew my budget!! The problem is all the strings that are attached when you rely on your income coming from someone else and some one emptying my account because they think they know best!!! If people would take the time to ask..... They would know!
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