Stored Energy
So I'm directing it correctly but the huge issue is still the feeling of constantly being watched, and not being able to laugh! It just seems forced still! I still dont feel like I can be me. I lost me somehow, somewhere!!! Maybe it was lost lake!! Idk? I still have the shirt tucked away. I'm just Waiting for the day to sit down and have the patience to draw my lily pads and the tree I saw when I awoke from my darkest dream! I hold on to these memories to remind me how far I've come and that I still haven't found a way to express them.
Do you remember the day I looked at you and said "I want to sit down and watch the people dance.... Just to laugh"
Well, thats cuz I don't laugh anymore. I knew going through with this was gonna be filled with tears... Doing something and finishing it. They hate to see me Hurt... I'll make it through the holidays... I gotta... Slowly pulling myself together... Boy george gotta love the originals.. They always say it best!
I think I've lost my funny bone or I'm just trying to hard to------
Define Creativity: Yeah thats the thing.. I'm not going off any script anymore. I got the start of my ideas and this is just my process of finishing them. It's like I'm just gonna stay till they are done. In my own studio!!! (fuck Yeah)
My Lily is adorable when she gets frustrated like me.. She said I was cute while we were cleaning the back yard!! The things I do for this child are sometimes hard to believe!!!
Do you remember the comment I put on my old face book of finding a man that would first treat me right and then I would teach him to be a father to my child?
Well that's is what I see in my head as a happy ending!!!
S.V.M.Haggard (Aka brutally honest) #Real talk
Karma is not to be messed with, some people just learn the hard way.
I tried to make this grammar correct but oh well... You get the point.
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